There are other things that I definately should be doing...

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 17:26:22 GMT

Why does it get shoved back in my face evey time I put myself first and make the decision to make my happiness my number one priority?
I know that I cannot make everyone happy. I know that throughout my life, people are going to be disapointed in me. Good. Let's move on. There is a fine line between disapointment and pure and utter anger and discust that occurs. And I'm left feeling like the scum of the earth. I don't know whether to be completely pissed off and angry, or just really sad. Girls make life fucking difficult..especially ones like this!

But then there are other girls that seem to cure my grumpyness with just a smile. The type of girl that makes the hair on my arms stand up when she kisses me. The type of girl that's stories make me grin from ear to ear. The type that make me gush and light up with a smile when people just mention her name. The type that I wish I would have met months and months before I did. Because we'd have more time to spend together. Because, after 3 interesting relationships I finally realize that this is how it's supposed to be...the butterflies, the comfortableness, the laughing, the cuddling, the long talks, the kissing, the time apart, the time together...it's just good...and everything i've anticipated it to be. :)

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There are other things that I definately should be doing...